New Goal's!

 I have a new goal. A few new goals to work on musically! Starting tomorrow I'll be practicing playing 'Fiction' by Avenged Sevenfold on my acoustic guitar. I'm so excited to learn it! <3 RIP Jimmy Sullivan! I love and miss you foREVer my angel of music! xo <3 I had band practice today. I think it was my last. I love playing drums and I'm so stoked I learned to play because of The Rev. I made a promise to him many years ago. I just feel that bass guitar is my strongest instrument to play personally. I'll keep playing drums, that'll never stop! It's just... I'm scared if I get big one day and perform drums in front of an audience, I'll forget everything.. Plus I'm kinda losing my spark for drums.. They're not boring at all, it's just making that my place in a band and wishing I could do a different instrument. I'm also gonna start with my EDM/electronic solo music. \m/ I'm sorry this blog is short. I did it last minute before bed time. I'll probably have another blog or blogs tomorrow. I will try. I really want to, but ideas are a bitch. Goodnight and stay safe! \m/

Concerts & Band Practice, Job Searching

 

    Sorry It's been a while! I've been very lazy with my blogs... I apologize. I haven't been working a lot at Game Stop. Good.. I don't like it. I hope to get a job at Spirit Halloween soon! I hope... I already applied a few weeks ago. Had band practice today. Our band needs a logo. That's my job! I found a lot of fonts I like for my band. They're free too! \m/ I recently saw Alesana again! I met them too! One of the guitarists tried to avoid me. I started to walk up to him and he put his hand up like 'stop'. I was hoping he'd sign the book Dennis and Shawn made. I was a little hurt about it. Maybe he just had a bad day or something?!... I recently got a tarantula. Her name's Nyxx. I named her after an artist I like. Haven't held her. Not sure if I will or not. I want too, but I'm scared too. I'm not ready for the 4th of July.. I hate that day. They need to ban fireworks. There's people that have bad ptsd, like me, who can't stand loud banging noises cause it gives them bad anxiety... I'll just keep ear buds in all day and night I guess... On another note, I started taking my own meds and filling up my pill box!

    I've been wanting to change jobs for a long time now. I don't like my job at Game Stop... I thought of waiting to see if I get hired to Spirit Halloween, then that'll be the end of my time at Game Stop finally... I already have a small list of other jobs to apply at if I get the job at Spirit. Hopefully I'll get hired at one of the stores after Spirit closes for the year... I've always wanted to work at Star Bucks, but it's a fast paced job, and fast paced isn't me... I wish it was... That would have been a cool job. Plus I go there almost all the time. I can't wait for pumpkin spice lattes to FINALLY be at Star Bucks again! After that, I always look forward for the peppermint flavor. I can't wait for fall! Even pumpkin spice snacks!

Ps, I finally went up a size on my septum ring! After this size, I'll finally be at my final size! I can't wait! \m/

No More Daily Blogs

 

    

    I'm sorry I haven't been doing my blogs. This every day blog was getting to me. I'm so behind, I just decided not to do daily blogs anymore. Ideas can be a pain to think of, plus my daily schedule. I'm still blogging. I might do a weekly blog instead of a blog a day. That'll be easier on me. Besides, I'm no where when it comes to getting paid to blog. I don't even know if it'll get anywhere to where I do get paid for it. From my new job to my regular schedule, I couldn't get blogs done or thought of, because of my every day schedule. I don't know how long this one will be honestly... Not long, I know that... My new job is at GameStop is good. I'm still learning some stuff. I have two full pages of notes in my phone I typed when I was doing online training. Then again, I think I deleted it... Shit... Oh well, there's nothing wrong with asking for help. I work tonight. I've been trying to get my pay card going. It's set, but every time I try to use the app it gets locked! This is three times now! I need to call the card people and unlock my card. I don't like this bank. It's Metabank. Apparently it's not just me, it's everyone who has the card. The card is actually rapid! pay card. MetaBank is the bank it uses. I'll have to figure it out. I'm sorry this blog is short. I just wanted to do an update real quick. I hope you all have an amazing day! \m/

How I Schedule My Work Week

 

    This is my 29th blog! It's a make up for March 26th... I'm really behind. I'm sorry!

    This blog I'm gonna explain how I schedule my work week. I use three calendars. My phone, a large calendar that holds up til' 2026, and a handbook schedule. I write and text the same things that are going on for the week/month. Most of it's the same... Nothing exciting. For instance,

Sunday - Nothing unless a family event or something happens

Monday - Nothing unless a family even or have any apts.

Tuesday - See my outing person

Wednesday - Nothing unless a family even or have any apts.

Thursday - I see my case worker(unless rescheduled)

Friday - Nothing unless a family even or have any apts.

Saturday - Nothing unless a family even or something happens

    That's pretty much my schedule. It's not much, but when I look at my calendar for the whole month, it looks like a lot, but it's just the same stuff. That's all I really have for this blog. I thought I was gonna have trouble with this blog, but turned out to be easy for me to come up with. Thank you so much for reading my blogs! It means a lot! I hope you all have a great day/night, wherever you are! \m/

My Favorite Season

     This is a make up for March 25th. I have eleven more to do. Twelve if you count this blog.

    If anyone knows me, they know how obsessed I am with Halloween. My apartment has Halloween decor all over. Especially in my kitchen. Like any Halloween lover, I need more Halloween decor! 😍 Thankfully you can you still buy Halloween stuff online all year long! I'm thankful for that. I still have my costume from last year. I don't plan on getting rid of it ever. I was a Children of the Corn last year. I love that franchise. To me, Halloween isn't just a holiday, It's a lifestyle. It's my life style. Well... Part of it. Another is music and movies. I keep planning to do. the 31 days of Halloween by watching a horror movie every day for the month of October, or as I say, Rocktober. I got that from a radio station I sometimes listen to. 98.9 The Rock KQRC Leavenworth... Sorry if that was the wrong order. 😅 There's a rock song called 'Halloween' by an eighties hair band called 'Helloween'. I love that song and the music video! It's so bitchin'! Go check it out! \m/ I've worked at Spirit Halloween a couple times. It's the best job ever! sadly It's only seasonal... We can dress up ever day in costume. I know the store front to back. Where's what, ect. Every year the Silver Shamrock song from Halloween III comes into my head. On my social media I always post '30 more days til' Halloween, Silver Shamrock' and count down each day. I wish that was my ringtone. Haha. Last year my boyfriend and I carved a pumpkin. I haven't done that in FOREVER!

    What I love about fall is endless. The changing colors of the leaves, the autumn smell, pumpkin spice comes back, the list goes on. I always go to Star Bucks and get their Pumpkin Spice lattes, frappés, pumpkin spice snacks and more! Fall is also the best time to go home décor shopping! If you went to my place, you'll see some of Halloween stuff out all year long. I need more! 😍👻🦇 

If I Could Change Anything About My Life

     This is a make up for March 24th.

    

If I could change anything about my life, my body wouldn't be so retarded. I'd have a normal body like everyone else. I hate my body so fuckin' much. I have spina bifida and a carotid artery. Thankfully my spina bifida isn't as bad as other cases. I have the occulta. There's different types of it. A patch of hair grows on the lower part of my back. I shave it, so I don't feel as self cautious than I normally do. There's a scar on my back from surgery. "Spina bifida is a birth defect in which a developing baby's spinal cord fails to develop properly while in the womb. Symptoms can sometimes be seen on the skin above the spinal defect. They include an abnormal tuft of hair, a birthmark, or protruding spinal cord tissue. When treatment is necessary, it's done through surgery to close to the defect. Other treatments focus on managing complications." I'm not posting any pics, cause this topic is very sensitive to me and embarrassing as shit... I also have a carotid artery, where blood vessels in the neck that carry blood from the heart to the brain. Carotid artery disease causes up to one-third of all strokes. That's one bullshit I'm at high risk of. Strokes. I swear if it happens while I'm young, I'm dying young. I'm not gonna fuckin' deal with that shit. I won't. I have to be super careful bending and lifting things. That's why I can't have a job that does a lot of it. If something were to ever happen to my other artery that works, I'd be dead. I don't have blood flowing on my right side of my neck. Only my left. I'm so sorry... I'm feeling very insecure now... I think I should stop with this blog... I don't think I can go any further... Plus, I pretty much explained everything to be honest. I hope you all have a great night! \m/

Creating EDM Music

     

    This is a makeup for March 23rd. I've been holding this off forever. I want to create my own EDM music. I don't even know where to start. Some of my inspirations are Skrillex, Alan Walker, Tiësto, Scooter, Darren Styles, the Breeze, Vaski, Yellow Claw, and more. I need to watch some videos, if there are any, of those artists creating their music. I love the unique sound this genre of music has. There's a lot of badass sounds you can create. I've heard many. One artist that does badass sounds is R3HAB and VINAI. I'd love to see all these artists one day. There's a thing in Tomorrowland(pic above), which is a festival of EDM musicians. It's a tour festival. There are many videos of live EDM artists at Tomorrowland on YouTube. I watched one with David Guetta and he has this song called Shot Me Down ft. Skylar Grey. I wanted to go to one ever since. I enjoy watching full concert videos of it on YouTube. Some are like three hours long, and it took me a few days to finish it!

    When I save up, I plan on getting a dj controller(light up buttons) and a turn table. I plan to add my bass guitar to the EDM music, along with my electric drums. Not sure how that'll turn out, but it sounds interesting. I'll make my own music with that. Plan to start out with an EP and go from there. I hope one day to team up with DJs I mentioned above. Let alone see them in concert. \m/ There's some apps I can start out with on my phone. I'm just too scared that anything I make will sound like shit or be stupid... I'm not good with my own confidence, but I'm do it anyway. I don't have much to say with this blog, so I might end it here before I drag it. Have a great night and stay tuned for more makeup blogs! \m/