This blog is a makeup for March 11th. I have to make up for yesterday's blog and today's. That will be three blogs today! I try to stay dedicated to my blog channel.
Anyone's whoever dyed their hair I'm sure knows it can be a bitch. It's too expensive to get it professionally done, so I just dye it myself. My hair's been a few different colors. Black, red, electric blue, dark brown from the fading black dye. Mine's currently black. It was fun with the bright colors and all, but they fade really fast, which I really hate. If it didn't fade fast, I'd probably keep it red. I don't re-dye my hair much. 1. money and 2. a lot of chemical and I don't wanna lose my hair. I'm never having my hair short again. I've it so many time through the years and at some point I had it cut. No more though. Last time I got it cut was when I was trying to show my family, the 'qualities' I need to have/do to be FTM(female to male). I'll never cut it short again unless I know for a fact I'd transfer genders. I'm not gonna go for 'I need the looks first', I'm going the 'It will for a fact happen, no if's and's or but's'. Do I feel like a guy? Sometimes. I know I'm not in the right body. It's weird. I know. If I can just get my chest to no chest, that would be great. Not for the sex change, but because at night it's sometimes uncomfortable because my chest is in the way and presses against my body, or when trying to make my arms comfortable, my chest tis always in the way and I hate it. They're too small and I'm so insecure about that. I don't want them bigger because of problems that can happen if you get implants. Leakage, too big, ect. A long time ago on a show called '1,000 Ways To Die', a woman got her chest hella big and inside the silicones was a chemical or something. When she went on a plane and after it took off, her chest exploded and she died. So, yeah... I just wanna get rid of them... Plus in case breast cancer happens, I don't know if that runs in the family or if it's a 'it can happen to any woman' thing. I don't wanna take any chances... I want them gone. Again especially for when I try to get comfortable in bed, cause their not comfortable in bed. Their always in my damn way. If my family, specifically my Grandma and Aunt, please understand that's the main reason I want my chest gone. Plus I'm so insecure about them and my body alone. I'll save up if you're alright with it. Anyway... I know this blog was about hair dye, then I talked about my chest issue... My bad! I hope you enjoyed this blog. I understand if you didn't. Heh... I will post my next two soon! Definitely before the night's over.
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